I like the idea of brunch.
It makes a good start to the day to be able to sleep in and leisurely enjoy a late brekkie with friends. Today was a public holiday which, for me, means nothing as I am unemployed. However it does make other people available to hang out with. So I had a 10.30 brunch with Delle, Jo, Vanessa and Shelley while a few of the boys went mountain biking. We then went back to Delle's place and played trains which is a variation of dominoes, very fun and pretty much a no-brainer. Ate lots of chocolate (Cadbury Black Forest) which is my favourite! In my absence Cadbury have downsized their chocolate blocks from 250g to 200g and started putting it in boxes! You can imagine how upset this makes such group. We are already reminiscing about the good old days of 250 gram blocks.
By 4 o'clock I had my fill. I seem to have become somehow different. Socialising is less of a priority to me yet people expect me to be what I have been in the past. I hope that I do not do that to others. Expect them to be as they have always been, not allowing for change, growth and maturity. When I was 18, I hoped to please others, to be liked. The way I did this was to be loud, and laugh and to be open to such a degree that I exposed myself to all. I allowed everyone into my circle. I told people the truth about me, about themselves. And yet somehow my brash honesty was appreciated. Things were always said in jest, with a laugh or a smile. I realise now that I managed to get away with a lot. When I look back I am amazed I had that many friends. I have become less inclined to please other people. Maybe it's because I know that no matter what I do, not everyone will be happy. You can't please everyone. I've become less tolerable and therefore my remarks appear bitter. I despise this in myself. I hate hearing the words that come out, and yet I can't stop them.
I have much to work on. But I'd like to think that above all, I am giving opportunity for others to change. That I see them as they are now, not as they once were. It's such a beautiful thing when people grow and change together, there is a continual adjusting to each other. This is essential in marriage. It would be a strange thing indeed if at the end of a lifetime a couple would be exactly the same. When growth and change occurs through experiences together, a couple is made stronger and the bond between them reinforced. This is such a comforting thought to me...
It makes a good start to the day to be able to sleep in and leisurely enjoy a late brekkie with friends. Today was a public holiday which, for me, means nothing as I am unemployed. However it does make other people available to hang out with. So I had a 10.30 brunch with Delle, Jo, Vanessa and Shelley while a few of the boys went mountain biking. We then went back to Delle's place and played trains which is a variation of dominoes, very fun and pretty much a no-brainer. Ate lots of chocolate (Cadbury Black Forest) which is my favourite! In my absence Cadbury have downsized their chocolate blocks from 250g to 200g and started putting it in boxes! You can imagine how upset this makes such group. We are already reminiscing about the good old days of 250 gram blocks.
By 4 o'clock I had my fill. I seem to have become somehow different. Socialising is less of a priority to me yet people expect me to be what I have been in the past. I hope that I do not do that to others. Expect them to be as they have always been, not allowing for change, growth and maturity. When I was 18, I hoped to please others, to be liked. The way I did this was to be loud, and laugh and to be open to such a degree that I exposed myself to all. I allowed everyone into my circle. I told people the truth about me, about themselves. And yet somehow my brash honesty was appreciated. Things were always said in jest, with a laugh or a smile. I realise now that I managed to get away with a lot. When I look back I am amazed I had that many friends. I have become less inclined to please other people. Maybe it's because I know that no matter what I do, not everyone will be happy. You can't please everyone. I've become less tolerable and therefore my remarks appear bitter. I despise this in myself. I hate hearing the words that come out, and yet I can't stop them.
I have much to work on. But I'd like to think that above all, I am giving opportunity for others to change. That I see them as they are now, not as they once were. It's such a beautiful thing when people grow and change together, there is a continual adjusting to each other. This is essential in marriage. It would be a strange thing indeed if at the end of a lifetime a couple would be exactly the same. When growth and change occurs through experiences together, a couple is made stronger and the bond between them reinforced. This is such a comforting thought to me...
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