one day of grace

I think that I'm allowed one day off. One day to mope, lie in the sun reading and one day to do whatever takes my fancy. So that is what I did exactly. When I told Chery (my old boss and very good friend) about what happened with previously mentioned job, she got the cavalry all in it. It's great when you've got people in your life that know exactly what to do and what to say to you when you're in that kind of a circumstance. There's nothing that I can appreciate more.

So today I'm going to do some housework for mum. Sweep the floors and tidy up a bit. It's confirmed that she will loose her hair for sure with the chemo so she's been busy looking at all kinds of wigs. I think that she's secretly hoping her hair will grow back thicker and curly because, I'm told, it often changes entirely to what it was like before. I haven't been worried about it all because I know everything's alright. I guess it's just the process and knowing that this will happen, knowing that she will be sick from it. It's weird being on the inside of things. I have always been on the outside of families that have someone sick within the ranks. They all huddle around that person and it's hard for the outsider to know what to say or even how to act. I have always treated someone sick the same way I always have related to them. I figure that they don't want everything to change.

It's different on the inside. We talk about it, we talk about processes, side effects of those processes. Dad and I unconsciously adjust around mum, stepping in to protect her from doing too much (that's a hard one.) She's still working which would be fine if they all realised the extent of things. The problem is that people that don't make a big deal out of their sicknesses, don't get much empathy. Mum doesn't whinge and so people don't take notice. It's horrible that the world works like that. The squeaky wheel gets the oil.

To newer things...we are getting a new computer today! Dad ordered it from Dell about a week ago so I better start saving all my stuff, it's so exciting that I might even clean up the desk so it has a welcoming home!